Practical advice and personal wisdom from a four-time cancer survivor.

I don’t want to be ashamed of cancer

by Julie Negrin

Lately, I realized I was ducking my head when I passed people in public, especially when I had a hat on that revealed my bare head. Embarrassed, the cancer patient, I looked down and away. Not always but enough times for me to notice. And then at my oncologist, there was an article in some cancer magazine about Kathy Bates going through cancer twice and her quote caught my eye “I realized it wasn’t necessary to hide. Nobody should be ashamed to have cancer.” Was that why I didn’t tell…

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I am grieving the loss of my old self

by Julie Negrin

I’ve been quiet on updates because it’s been really tough and I didn’t want to depress you guys. Behind the smiley photos, there’ve been struggles. I didn’t understand how many complications could result from 18 rounds of chemo and major abdominal surgery – and I didn’t understand hints my doctors kept giving me about my prognosis….until a few weeks ago when one finally said it – mind-shattering to hear but at least he was honest. Apparently I have a “terrible prognosis” because I’ve had 4 cancers by 42. This seems…

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Reality is hitting me

by Julie Negrin

Been awhile since I posted. So much has happened in the last month, it’s hard to wrap my brain around it let alone write about it. I’ve been told that the post-chemo experience is a head trip. I didn’t understand how it could be as difficult as going through chemo but now, I get it. You’re stuck in this weird reality – what I call CancerLand – for so many months that you acclimate to it. You’re in survival mode. You do what needs to be done. And then you’re…

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I want to quit chemo

by Julie Negrin

The last couple of weeks have been both difficult and good. The anxiety of waiting on my dad’s surgery was super stressful, especially from afar. Thankfully, he is doing fantastic and does not need chemo! Huge relief. I skipped chemo last week because my brother and nephews were in town. What a wondrous feeling it was to have an entire week off and spend time with family! My fingers started to heal, my digestion improved, and my fatigue lifted. Best of all, I got sweet kisses from the boys. Certainly…

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Losing my hair is weird

by Julie Negrin

I’ve been through so much, I thought losing my hair would be the least of it. I figured I’d rock some cool hats from my huge collection and have some fun. A couple months and it will grow back! I think bald heads on dudes is super sexy and Sinead O’Conner pulled it off so beautifully. No biggie, right? But it sucks! It’s this horrible external reminder of what I’m going through. EVERY TIME I LOOK IN THE MIRROR, I’m being reminded that I’m a CANCER PATIENT CANCER PATIENT CANCER…

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Trying to let go of fear of chemo – and failing

by Julie Negrin

This was written the night before my first chemo treatment of Taxol and Carboplatin on 4/17/14 I know it’s normal to be afraid of chemo. But my rational brain keeps telling me that I shouldn’t be afraid – so many people have been through this and are doing great now! But this fear is different than anything I’ve felt before. Every time I think of the IV starting, I feel a pit in my stomach. So not my style, as one friend put it. I’ve jumped out of a plane,…

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  • Hi, my name is Julie Negrin. I’m a nutritionist that’s battled 4 cancers: melanoma, ovarian, colon, and endometrial cancer — the last 3 all at once — due to a genetic disorder called Lynch Syndrome. In the three years since I lost four organs, I've been slowly transforming to "disabled" after living a mostly able-bodied life. I've also had a bunch of other complications including not being able to eat solid foods.... Stick around if you're not afraid of the ugly bits. Much love,

    Much love,

    Julie Negrin

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